November 23, 2009 - Posted by kaykhine2006 - 0 CommentsMy love!Do you know there are many words I want to talk to you and explain you until you understand my heart and my love?I do really love you so much.But I know you will never accept that and you will always saying that I am your friend. Everytimes you said that I am your friend…my heart was hurt!That’s not what I want to be. I want to hear you say that I am your lover…You will love me forever…You will never leave me alone.But It’s Ok. It’s enough if you can be happy for that. I am thinking sometimes…Are you scaring to take responsible for my life when you accept that I am your lover?No..my love! Actually, what I want was so simple.Just wanna be with you sometimes. Just wanna see your face. I didn’t expect anything. I know your wife and your son belong to your life and times. I will never try to break your family and never try to steal their times with you.But what can I do? I did fall in love to you and we both did many crazy things together. You were my first guy in my life who lived together with me. How do I forget about you?You visit to me and you treat me over than a friend in every times.But you always said you want me to be your friend.Do you know it’s so difficult for me? I know you may be scaring I’m gonna disturb your life. But I said many times I won’t do that ever!Why you never understand me? Why you always asking me to do the thing I don’t want!I don’t think you can live without hugging me..kissing me..and sleep by my side holding me when you come. Those are the manners of friends?You always said you love me. But have you ever visited anywhere together with me?Have we ever gone out for a lunch or dinner? Never!I had never passed my birthday or Valentine’s day together with you.But i understand you. Because you had wife. She should be the one take this chances.You came to me only once in two months or three months.You called me and sms me just only sometimes. I miss you so much! I want to hear your voice often! I want your warmness! I miss you like a crazy whenever I see the other lovers!I am also want to be like them.However.. I have never had any other guys in outside? You will never know. You may thinking that I have other guys.I have never changed upon you no matter how we apart.Because I don’t want to love any guys! Because in my brain..in my heart…I am always thinking that you are the most perfect guy..handsome guy in my life.Today, You said you don’t know how to talk to me. You joke me like with everyone else..all of your friends..but I am always angry with you..Do you know why?I don’t like you think about me same like your other friends!I am not your friend! I am your lover!We had many unforgetable memories more than friend!You should feel jealous when I say that I want to get another guy!What do I give you more? How much do I sacrified to get your true heart?Anyway..I kept my sadness in my heart today and I made you to be happy again.Because I am still cannot get over with you yet.I am also do not ever hope to get your understanding.I am now just wanna make you to be happy while I still have chance to see your face. Less upset..Less angry with youI will take care of you as much as I can. I am scare I couldn’t see you anymore when you return to US someday.I really don’t wanna reach that day.I am so scare…I can live without marrying with any guys. I dare to live alone without anybody taking care of me.But I can’t live without seeing your face sometimes….Just really sometimes…My love…can you know my wish? When will be understand my heart?Maybe you will never understand..because you don’t want to..Continue Reading...
